Monday, May 04, 2009

Losing a Parent

Life does throw us a few curve balls sometimes. There are really good moments but there are also some really sad moments. I am starting to believe that if we can balance it properly, then maybe nothing is really that bad or good after all. Well is it? Does that statement even make sense?

I lost my dad 10 years ago and that was a shock but I got through it, but I never knew I would be saying good-bye to my mother just 10 years later. It is a sad time with Mother's Day being so close at hand. I see the commercials and think, this year I won't be buying or giving my mom a gift. Wow, that is interesting. How do I feel about that? How will I cope? Well, she was sick for a while so I am glad that she is out of pain but I do miss her and as reality sinks in each day, I'm sure I will miss her even more.

The one thing I am happy about is that she is no longer in pain. She was sick for a while and that is no way for anyone to live. I did have my mom for a long time so I am very thankful for that as well and even though I am still sad, I do know that as the days go by I will be stronger and continue to live a good life even with this huge change before me. Losing a parent is not an easy thing, but I know my mom and dad would want me to continue living a good life and being as joyful as possible. My goal is to honor them both by being happy and being thankful. That would make them very proud.